Can anyone relate to near constant suicidal thoughts?
I haven?t read the whole thread but yes very much so.
Not particularly Covid related but the isolation has certainly emphasised the pre existing loneliness and the realisation that realistically I count for nothing at all to the only people I ever wanted to mean something.
A cocktail of antidepressants, SAD lamp thing, counselling, and yet I still wake up in tears each morning, put on a brave face for my watch again work, laugh and joke, then get home, look at photographs of just this summer when I was happy, and wonder how long I can keep this act up for.
So anyone else feeling similar has my sympathy. It?s a fight with a mind that wants to kill you until one day you give up because it doesn?t really matter anymore.
Cheery little monkey aren?t I!
For the ?I?ll do whatever I want/civil liberties flag wavers, I?ve done this whole pandemic in the emergency services. I?ve moved bodies of covid patients, seen the mortuaries, and broken colleagues. I?d say to you, you are not the only
Ones struggling, but lots of people have it much worse than not being able to go caving. So if that?s your biggest worry, you can politely get a f**king grip.

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